chapter 13

I'm gonna be Lady Gaga for Halloween. Check it out. :)








I cannot express how much I love my new job. Working at a bookstore is like, the epitome of what I should've been doing for years. Maybe I won't even be a teacher, maybe I'll just make my way up into the company and make lots of bookselling money. The manager actually makes pretty fantastic money. hmm....

One of the best parts of this job is that while I get a killer discount on books, if I want to, I can check as many books as I want out (like a library!) without paying for them, to see if I like them before paying for them! It's awesome!!!


I know it's been awhile since I've updated, but I've been so busy working. This week my mom sent me some leaves from MI. I put them in my seasonal picture frame. It's one of the only things I brought from my parents' house, and it's a set of 4 pics, one from each season, from the same place in my parents' backyard. Check it out:



I miss fall...

chapter 12

Potpourri: any mixture, esp. of unrelated objects, subjects, etc.

That is precisely what this post will be. A mixture of random topics chosen by me. I hope you enjoy.

• I like organizational tools like bullet points. They make boring things more fancy.
• I think that if I wasn't so lazy, I'd probably have OCD. I want things to be done a certain way so badly. But I'm lazy as hell, so I never take the time to do them. Haha.
  
• I love getting cards in the mail. Even if it's just an "I'm thinking about you card," it always makes my day. If you wanna send me one, email me and I'll send you my address. It'll make my day. I need that right now. Just sayin'...
  
• There's nothing more annoying than going to a bar with your girlfriends and having a sleazy, creepy guy try to come onto you. Seriously, it's like, if you have half a brain in your head, look at my left hand before you try to get into my pants. If I have a ring, don't bother. I don't want friends. I have plenty who are better than you'll ever be, sleaze ball. If I don't have a ring, but I'm not looking your way when you talk to me, take a fucking hint. NOT INTERESTED. This goes for all ladies at bars. Believe me, if a girl's looking to get some action, you will know. Otherwise, don't bother! You're wasting your time and looking like a douche bag. Oh, and if a girl is at a bar and says she's a lesbian, 9 times out of 10, she's lying. That's her way of saving her friends' ass and her own ass from your stupid come-ons. So again, NOT INTERESTED, so go away.
  

• I have a baby name list the size of Texas. For both boys AND girls. I want like 4 kids, well....now I want 4 kids, I guess we'll see after the first one or two.... Here are just some of the names I want to name future children:

Boys: Toren Michael, Camden Tiberius (yes, it's a Star Trek thing and no, I don't care what you think), Severin, Finn, Emery, Avery, Owen, and so many more...
Girls: Delaney Ann, Stella Mae, Zoey, Mercy, Margot, Charlotte, Adele, Celena, and so many more...
(If you have any fun names to suggest, please let me know! I love unique names)

• Nothing bothers me more than when someone is condescending to me for no good reason. When I'm wrong, fine. But if you're just being a jerk, even if you're a customer or a higher authority or something, I have a REALLY hard time biting my tongue because I honestly feel that there's this thing called tact. If you have none, I have no problem telling you. There's this thing where you're decent to people, and then they're decent to you. Anyone who's not like that, is a jerk, a rude SOB who has no tact. I just think that if you're rude to people your entire life, what does that leave you? That leaves you nothing, because you're a miserable waste who needs to grow up.
  
• I really want someone else to tell me that I shouldn't have so many tattoos. That my body is a temple. Just so I can say "Yes, my body is temple and I get to decide how to decorate it!" I don't know why, but I find that very clever.
• Blue Moon beer with an orange slice in it might just be the best thing ever.
• I really want someone to order a painting so I can send it out with my new business cards! They're snazzzy! You know you want one! Order one: Clever Characters.
• I want everyone to come here to visit. or live here. Seriously, I miss you all so fucking much.
• I talked to my wedding photographer Jena yesterday about my wedding photos and how it's been 2 months and I've only seen like 6 pics from it. Then she told me that she hasn't seen ANY of her pics from her wedding (she had 3 photogs and got married before me.) EPIC FAIL other 3 photogs! Get on it! I felt like a jerk, needless to say!
  
• I've painted my nails like every other day, and this whole, working at a bookstore thing has ruined them! They're constantly chipped! woe is me....
• That whole, "it's all hot and dry in TX" thing is a LIE! A BOLDFACED LIE! It's rained here like every frickin' day since we got here, and uh...I'm kind of sick of it. Don't get me wrong, I like the rain in MI because it's cold and usually when it rains there you don't feel like it's 100 degrees and that there's a cinder block on your chest because it's so damn humid. Also, in MI the ground does this thing where it absorbs the water when it rains. Here in TX, that absorption thing doesn't happen. It floods. Oh, it rained an inch? Now your roads and parking lots are flooded. Have fun with that, and don't drown. kthanx. UGH!

ok, i'm done for now. Sorry for the rambling mess.

xo
m.

chapter 11

Sometime in the not so near future, there will be a new middle school English teacher who is scared shitless about running a classroom full of hormone-crazed twelve year old boys and girls who want nothing to do with her grammar lesson and even less to do with how badly she wants to change their lives for the better.

That will be me.

The more we go to these teacher classes, the more I like to think that I will be able to handle a classroom. But in reality, I'm sure there will be tons of things that I won't know how to handle, and I'm sure I'll have a panic attack or two or twenty.

I would really love to get a teaching job though. Some days I think I'd be the best damn teacher ever, and some days I want to hide under my nonexistant teacher desk.

I know that even with all of my ridiculous planning antics that I will never been sufficiently ready for a teaching career. No matter how many procedures and routines that I come up with for my students, no matter how perfect my color coded folders are, no matter how well I get along with my principal, I will never be able to control everything that happens.

I think that's what scares me the most. The unknown of teaching. The fact that one day I could wake up only to go to work to have a student puke all over their desk, or have a student bring porn to school, or have a fire burn down the school. It's scary to think about, really.

Scary...isn't the best word for it I suppose. Maybe it's more along the lines of...oh I dunno....fucking terrifying.


haha. I don't know why I wrote this post, but I guess it's just something I needed to get outta my head.

chapter 9

Things I am currently in Love with

• Dove Milk Chocolate: I'm generally not much of a chocolate fan. But when I want it, I WANTNEEDMUSTHAVE it. Dove Milk Chocolate is rich and creamy and it really does feel like how it looks in the commercials, like a giant velvety wave of chocolate. It's amazing! It makes my day every time I eat some.

• YouTube: Lately I've been immersed in youtube. It's a never-ending collection of laughs. I truly love going to my homepage and seeing new videos from the channels I'm subscribed to. Most specifically, I've been watching a lot of the Shaytards. They are this amazingly normal family who all have hilarious senses of humor. They are extremely entertaining and they find fun in everything they do. It's inspiring. It's how I hope my family is once we have a few babies!

• Fine Point Pens: Ok, I've always had a pen fetish. And by fetish, I don't mean anything sexual. I'm just talking about the enjoyment I get when I use a smooth writing fine point pen that doesn't leak or anything. I have a problem. It's kind of serious, but I'm not giving this addiction up, ever.

• Deep Burgandy hair dye: Ah yes, I've gone back to almost black. It's a deeeeeeeep purplyred color that I think looks great on me. I feel like myself and I think my blue eyes POP! Besides, I think being a blonde girl with tattoos that I kind of looked a bit white trash. Not gonna lie.... So I think this is more, me.

• Writing letters by hand, and also, receiving hand written letters and cards from friends/family: There's nothing more personal than writing/receiving letters. It's showing those you love that you took the time to write them a personal note, not an email! When you check your mail and you see cards and letter from your family/friends, it's a great feeling. You feel like you're remembered. You're cared about. You are loved.

• Painting: This whole painting endeavour that I began a few months ago has saved my sanity. I really enjoy making things, unique things, for people. I enjoy seeing my work on other people's walls and know that they actually like it. People PAY me to paint for them. Holy crap that's such a dream come true. I love it.

• Rupert, my puggle: He's one of the best parts of my life. Every day he's happy to see me. He's my own personal heater when we sleep. He has the softest ears known to man, and he loves giving kisses, and I love gettting them. He lays in the sun and makes funny "gobble gobble" noises when he talks. He'll put his chin and stare at you until you give him what he wants. He's a great dog and our lives wouldn't be complete without him. He's our babydog!

• My Bookstore Job: Ok, so I haven't started it yet. But I know that I'm going to LOVE this job. Not only will it be fantastic to get back to work, but a BOOKSTORE!!?? Are you kidding? For an English major, booksnob/geek, this is perfect. Plus, I'll get to work with my hubby. It's a dream!

• Becoming a teacher: So we're here in TX because we're doing a teaching program. The more we have our classes and the more I do our online training, the more impatient I'm becoming. I want to be a teacher now. I'm so ready. I'm ready to start changing lives. I'm ready to get 12 year olds to love reading and writing. I'm ready to laugh with 7th graders and I'm ready for the headaches they'll cause me.

• Red Wing Hockey: I love Red Wing Hockey because it makes my hubby happy. It makes him feel like he's still got a part of home with him. If he's happy, then I'm happy. I can't wait until we have a couch and a tv so we can watch it together. I liked those nights in MI when we could curl up on the couch with Rupert and a couple beers and watch some Red Wing Hockey. If he's happy, then I'm happy.

• Cable television shows that are available online: This has been a life saver for me. The boredom I've endured since we got to TX has been exponentially decreased due to the shows I love that are available to watch online. Without my computer, I'd be at a total loss.

There's so much more. I'll write another post later.