So tonight I had a moment of clarity.
Let me explain.
For the past 9 months, I've been thinking and over-thinking and rethinking my upcoming labor/delivery (only 4ish weeks away!) I've been fearing it and stressing out about it, which I know is the worst thing a woman can do in preparation for her natural, medication-free birthing experience. I know it's going to hurt, DUH, but I was terrified as to how I'll handle it.
Tonight, before bed, Hubby and I were going through our bag that's partially packed for when it's GO TIME! I was folding up one of the three outfits we're packing for Penelope to bring her home in (since we don't know just how big or how small she'll be) and I had this moment, where everything in my mind felt right.
All the fear I had in my heart was gone. All I could think about was that in a few short weeks, Penelope will be in one of those outfits, on her way home with us. I realized that no matter how much pain I go through, that in the end, Penelope will be here safe and sound and that it was all worth it.
A few hours of my life in pain will not compare to the amazing amounts of happiness that Penelope will bring to us. And that, is exactly why I'm going to be OK, why this labor and delivery will be successful and beautiful.
Now I can't wait to meet her. I'm so ready for this pregnancy to come to its close and for our little ladybug to be here.
Hubby and I talk daily about her and how awesome it's going to be to be parents, HER parents.
How ready we are.
How excited we are.
The things we're worried about, but mostly, we talk about the things we can't wait to do, can't wait to experience with Penelope.
The places we want to take her.
The things we want to show her that we love and hope she does too.
The people who she has waiting for her here on the outside who already love her so much and cannot wait to share that love with her.
How we can't wait to take pictures of all of her firsts, her facial expressions, and her explorations of the outside world.
There's so much we can't wait for.
Let me explain.
For the past 9 months, I've been thinking and over-thinking and rethinking my upcoming labor/delivery (only 4ish weeks away!) I've been fearing it and stressing out about it, which I know is the worst thing a woman can do in preparation for her natural, medication-free birthing experience. I know it's going to hurt, DUH, but I was terrified as to how I'll handle it.
Tonight, before bed, Hubby and I were going through our bag that's partially packed for when it's GO TIME! I was folding up one of the three outfits we're packing for Penelope to bring her home in (since we don't know just how big or how small she'll be) and I had this moment, where everything in my mind felt right.
All the fear I had in my heart was gone. All I could think about was that in a few short weeks, Penelope will be in one of those outfits, on her way home with us. I realized that no matter how much pain I go through, that in the end, Penelope will be here safe and sound and that it was all worth it.
A few hours of my life in pain will not compare to the amazing amounts of happiness that Penelope will bring to us. And that, is exactly why I'm going to be OK, why this labor and delivery will be successful and beautiful.
Now I can't wait to meet her. I'm so ready for this pregnancy to come to its close and for our little ladybug to be here.
Hubby and I talk daily about her and how awesome it's going to be to be parents, HER parents.
How ready we are.
How excited we are.
The things we're worried about, but mostly, we talk about the things we can't wait to do, can't wait to experience with Penelope.
The places we want to take her.
The things we want to show her that we love and hope she does too.
The people who she has waiting for her here on the outside who already love her so much and cannot wait to share that love with her.
How we can't wait to take pictures of all of her firsts, her facial expressions, and her explorations of the outside world.
There's so much we can't wait for.
