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I've been trying to write a decent blog post for over a month, but nothing seems to come out when I sit in front of the computer. It's quite frustrating. I feel like I have so much to say, so much to talk about, but nothing comes out. It's weird.

I'm doing my monthly IVIG treatment right now. It took them 3 tries to find a vein this time. I just keep telling myself, only two more after this one. Then I get to meet with my Neurologist in December to discuss my future. I truly hope that these treatments will be done after that. I just want to be cured. I hate having to come here for a 7-hour treatment of the most expensive medication ever, next to Chemo. I hate that I have to pay hundreds of dollars every month for my health insurance so that these expensive treatments are covered. My family could be on our own feasibly if the money wasn't being spent on over-priced health insurance.

They always have a hard time finding a vein on me. My veins are practically non-existent, they say. Even the veteran nurse who's been doing this for 20+ years said that she's never seen someone so young with such poor veins. I think I'm dehydrated despite drinking plenty of water. Pretty sure I couldn't drink enough water to do anything. Plus, having to pee every half hour is annoying. I don't have time for that.

I do appreciate my treatment day each month though. I get some free time to myself, I can browse Pinterest all day if I want to, the nurses are so nice to me, I could nap all day if I wanted to. It's the little things, right?

Anyways, so how many of you are watching the new fall TV shows? Some of them are pretty great! Pan Am might be my favorite so far. I just love that time period, The 1960's. The style, the elegance, the grace. My main beef with that time period is how women were treated, like they were significantly worth less than men. Just eye candy and baby making machines and cooks. Ack. But the clothes and hair and makeup, just love it.

I'm also into Prime Suspect with Maria Bello. I don't know why, but I've always enjoyed her cocky hard-ass attitude. She's a guys gal, I dig it.

I've also been watching The Playboy Club, which I thought was going to suck, but is actually pretty decent so far.

One show I'm always interested in watching is What Would You Do? on ABC. I think that show is so funny and sometimes infuriating, but also can help you keep your faith in the human race or lose it, depending on the situation. Watching how people react in tough situations is very interesting, seeing what can push people over the edge of what's appropriate and what's not. It makes me more conscious of situations that happen in public and how I should stand up for people more often. I think people should do that, help each other out more, stand up for each other, for what's right. I think there'd be a lot less hate in the world if people could do that.

Last night Hubby, Penny and I went to a new restaurant in town, The Wooden Spoon, to celebrate our 7 year. It's a rustic, expensive Panera Bread, essentially. It was good, but holy crap, their Signature Mac n Cheese (mac n cheese with spinach and bacon) tore my stomach apart. SO oily and WAY too rich. Next time I'm going to try a salad or sandwich, because that Mac n Cheese, well, it was a hot mess. A hot tasty bacon-y mess, but good god, never again. I did love the decor and general feel of the restaurant though. It's small, locally owned and they even use Mason Jars as their glasses. It made me want to get some Mason Jars for our home someday. Just gave it a home-y comfortable feeling.

I've been looking into going back to school recently. I really have no idea how I'd do it, but I want to finish my teaching certificate so badly! I don't think it'll happen anytime soon though, timing just isn't right.

Yesterday we put Penny's lady bug costume on her to see how it fits. It pretty much fits her, the hood part is a little too big, but holy crap does she look cute! Our little ladybug's first real Halloween, and I cannot wait!!! Last year she was too tiny and we were in TX so we had nowhere to go anyways, but this year, we'll be out in full force! I'm so excited to see how she'll do with it all and just thinking about the future and what she'll want to be gives me a fuzzy tingly feeling inside my heart. I remember when my mom made me a Storm (from X-Men) costume for my 5th grade Halloween, I wish I could find a picture because it was awesome. I was SO excited to be storm, I could not wait to show off my sweet costume. The part I loved most was that my mom made it for me. I don't know if she knows that or not.

Enough for now, I am tired and I need to rest a bit.